In so many words...

Sighting

Ignorance

Sighting

Intrigue

Ignorance

Outing

Perceive

Consideration

Ignorance

Sighting

Consideration

Maybe

Observation

Ok

Waiting

Pilot light

Waiting

Tuesday

Mediocre

Waiting

Thursday

Oppurtunity

Fail

Animosity

Oppurtunity

Fail

Secession

Facebook

Rejuvination

Waiting

Waiting

Waiting

Waiting

Game Time

Tuesday

Oppourtunity

Fail

Sighting

Strategize

Anger

Calm

Waiting

Game Day

Thursday

Think

Class

Off-guard

Opportunity

Fail

Anger

Stress

Build up

Attempt

Go

Go

Go

Fail

Go

Fail

Scouting

Go

Fail

Sucession

Scouting

Observation

Lying

Consternation

Scheming

Choices

Focus

Forget it

Break

Email

Lunch

Conversation

Friend

Class

Sighting

Wait for it

Go

Stop

Uh oh

Pain

Lecture

Mind Races

Pump it

Pump it

Now or Never

Now or Never

Now or Never

Heart

Animosity

Adreneline

Commotion

Run

Run

Waiting

Waiting

Waiting

Here it comes

Here it comes

Here it comes

Here it comes

Here it comes

Sighting

Walking

Side door?

…

…

…

Fail

Pain

Pain

Yelling

Driving

Upset

Stupity

Facebook

…

I do stupid stuff when i'm upset

Hey, man, you know i'm really okay
the gun in my hand will
tell you the same
but when i'm in my car
don't give me no crap
cause the slightest thing
and i just might snap

When i go driving i stay in my lane
but getting cut off it makes me insane
open the glove box
reach inside
gonna wreck this fucker's ride
'cause i got a bad habit
of blowin' away yeah yeah
got a bad habit yeah yeah
and it ain't goin' away yeah yeah

Well, they say the road's
a dangerous place
if you flip me off i'll
get in your face
you drive on my ass
your foot's on the gas
and your next breath is your last
'cause i got a bad habit
of blowin' away yeah yeah
i got a bad habit yeah yeah
and it ain't goin' away yeah yeah

Drivers are rude
such attitudes
but when i show my piece
complaints cease
something's odd
feel like i'm god
you stupid dumbshit
goddamned motherfucker!

I open my glove box
reach inside
gonna wreck this fucker's ride
'cause i got a bad habit
of blowin' away yeah yeah
i got a bad habit yeah yeah
and it ain't goin' away yeah yeah

No one else blogs.
No one else blogs.
Who else blogs?
Is this a blog?
weblog

Secretly and slowly we continue on the way. Is there any other way. What is the way we want. Where will we eventually end up? How can one person really justify any existence?

Existentialism is no laughing matter.
Who told you otherwise?


This has been a post. While SC2 was trying to install.

Send more food.

Summer is a Beautiful Thing

Hello everyone. I apologize for no June posts. Sad I know. So I thought I would make a quick post about my favorite things about this summer so far. We are halfway through summer 2010. Here are some highlights:

• Backyard Bonfires - Gotta love cooking bread over an open flame.
• FDIC - Bailing out the Bank of John one paycheck at a time.
• Fireworks - Happy birthday America.
• Morrongo - New and exciting with long drives and good conversations + extra $ for John.
• Mid-Day Pool Party - Battling for the spot of raft king was never so intense.
  
• King No-Who - Hours of late night active listening fun.
  
• 4 Square - I think this might have been at the start of summer... just thought i'd throw it in there.

I think that is a pretty good list. If I had to point out a common trend in the list above, it would be nighttime and smoke-filled atmospheres.

Summer has been good so far. Can we keep it going? Next events I would like to see happen:

• Another Curb Rebel Video
• Left 4 dead big lan
• Nighttime fog + strobe pool party
• Airsofting?
• O.C. Fair?
  
• Camping?
  

Things that I would have liked to see this summer but did not come true:

• Yosemite
• Cardboard Tank

Hooray for summer 2010!

Things I've been noticing

1.) I only blog when there is something else I need to do, and don't want to do. In this case, there are many things I don't want to do and need to do, but that I just don't want to do.

So

I blog.

2.) My blogs used to be so much better.

Like a long time ago. Not even in the last year, or even two years.

I'm talking about 4 or so years ago.

Those were some angsty, badass blogs. To tell you the truth, I kind of miss that angstiness. Angst is the building block of teenage hood, and as I approach 20 I can't help but reminisce. And reminiscing is never good. In fact, it's bad.

Our trip down to de Portola didn't help either. Nostalgia is a drug. You feed it, but it's never satisfied.

I'd say my blogs are becoming more bland. Less flavor.

It doesn't go down like it used to.

Less fiber.

It's like eating candy and drinking pepsi.

No substance.

3.) I HATE APPLYING FOR JOBS.

JESUS. CHRIST.

MAKE THEM GO AWAY.

4.) I need a job.

5.) My life is a cruel paradox

6.) Oh I don't know. At this point I'm just trying to avoid getting my shit done.

Whatever.

No more lists. Lists are so five minutes ago.

Alright here's the lowdown:

I feel like I'm losing my mojo.

Bluntly put.

What does that mean? I don't know. I feel less concrete as a person compared to a couple months ago. Less cocksure...more skeptical. Why? I don't know. I've been thinking about what after college, and it's all so unplanned.

I guess this brings us back to #4.

Dude, this is one mad angsty post. I feel better, tell you the truth.

I must tell you about my thoughts

Sony is $158 dollars richer. Does it make me less of a man that I could not fix my PS3? Perhaps. It was a long, arduous battle. I believe my competitor would say they same. I dealt heavy blows, quick upper cuts. I ripped in greedily. I tore things out, unplugged power supplies, unscrewed screws. I felt confident. That was my folly. The vitality of my manhood rested on confidence alone. There was no substance, no talent or ability. Just wishful thinking. How will I be remembered? Nothing more than a confirmation number. I lonely 11-digit identification to show I am but one of many who was defeated. As they say, history is written by the victors.

My skills for visual effects and animation are starting to get noticed around my school. That, of course, is an overstatement. I'm actually quite unknown and little thought of, but at least people are asking me to do things.

1.) A Day at the Park: This film screens in ONE week. Pretty crazy. This film was my first senior thesis film and my first attempts at 3D animation. I'd say it's the more coherent of the films I've worked on.

2.) The Waking Ones: This film is bad. No really, this is a terrible film. Bad acting, bad story, TERRIBLE camera work, bad lighting. The only even remotely good things about this film are the sound design and the visual effects, which unfortunately are the two things the audience really could care less about. I've been working on the visual effects, and I must say they look pretty sexy. There's this one scene where this guy's face gets ripped off (kind of...it's more metaphorical or as they might say "bad") and light is supposed to emit from his face.

3.) The Mighty Lou Kingston: At first I did not like this film. Now I kind of like it. It's a boxing film where the main character is a 2D animated character (which I'm supposed to do...somehow.) The script needs a little work, but there is plenty of time to get this one done.


ANIMATIONEDUCATION

jeez, I'm really going heavy-handed with this animation stuff.

Well, I found a good animation school in France, and their stuff needs to be seen.




Way too good for student work. Really. Too good. What the heck.


Also, if you haven't seen these guys you should. These next two are the past academy award winning short animated films. Logorama is funny, La maison en petit cubes is French, and therefor heartbreakingly sad. Both of them are worth the time to watch.

Logorama from Marc Altshuler - Human Music on Vimeo.

Quick Blog

Hey blog! Time for a quick update.
So I am in Accounting class right and bored as usual.

I had some Flame Broiler from across the street from my business building today before class tonight. The store finally opened up. It was surprizingly cheaper than the Mission Viejo store by about $0.50 a bowl.

I want to let everyone know I am officially the President of the Finance Association! This is all part of my slow takeover of the Mihaylo school of Business and Economics. Time to rule with an iron fist! I'm really excited. I have good ideas to improve the club.

School has been a bitch lately. Lots of projects, papers and exams coming due. So much to do! I am trying to balance school work with FA, securing a summer job, and relaxing in general. Not enough time in the day.

Video games of the week: Left 4 Dead (PC), War of the Monsters (PS2)

This Saturday from 9am to 12pm is a Huntington Beach clean-up that FA is attending as a volunteer event. If you are interested in going let me know!